Final year! (finally)

Started final year today! (:
First posting was MIP3, placed in Winchester.
Gonna have a pretty busy, packed year.

Everyone left Southampton yesterday, all splitting to their respective places. ):
SO quiet at home now O_o not used to it yet.

Honestly, still can't believe I'm finally in final year :p scary eeks.

(but, excited :D)

Life.

When your dreams and life goals change so much that they set you on separate paths.
But that's life. As you grow up, you find that you don't get to completely control every single aspect of how you'd like your life to play out anymore.

And you just learn how to deal with it :)

Gravity.

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. 
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that,

You're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
You're on to me, on to me, and all over...
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.

Disconnected.

I've been feeling so disconnected lately. Been literally forcing myself to get out of bed every morning and getting on with the day's activities. No particular reason that I can think of why I should be feeling like this though? (I should be super duper happy, I'm on summer "break")

Hopefully this will pass soon.

Family.

Love my parents.

No matter how silly/annoying they are, amount of nagging they give me and yet how often they expect me to parent my brothers or how many fights we have.

Still love them to bits.